Pondering

It seems lately that all I do is sit around and ponder. I ponder about being a Mommy of two, if I will be "good" at it, what Bryar is going to look like, his hair color, his weight, what picture to put up on the last wall in his nursery, when I will actually go into labor, what it feels like to be outside, how Charli is going to react, whose temper he will have (Hopefully neither of ours. Bless his little heart if he does have it.) Pondering is something that I seem to have always been good at. People have asked me on numerous occassions what I am thinking about, just because I constantly have the "look of a thinker" on my face. A lot of people take my "look" as a bad one, but it sincerely just one of nothing while I think about the past, present and future.

Speaking of the past, present and future isn't it completely amazing how we can go from the lowest points in our lives to the almighty highs in such a short amount of time? It completely baffles me, but then again I know that we are all very loved by someone whom is greater than anyone of us and can turn our lives around in an instance.

This time last year, I would have never imagine that I would be completely blessed with a new Husband and a baby that is probably days away from arriving. I was single and praying that I would find the right person for not only myself but for my daughter as well. Even though I took a wrong path, God lead me to someone that I am more thankful for than I could ever explain. I never really thought after all of my ups and downs that I would be right here in this moment and be simply happy in all that I have.

Even though we do not want to see it sometimes, we must. We must make ourselves better, not for only ourselves but our children as well. If you are in a situation where you feel that life is throwing you up and down, (where you know that you should not be) remember that the days get better, the struggles they may not always go away but they do get easier, I promise. One day you will look back and laugh at the situation that are you in now. Just like one day soon I am going to look back and laugh at how much I hate bed rest but will be missing my nap times.

"Only if you have been in the deepest valley,

can you ever know how magnificent it is to be on the highest mountain."

To be honest, I have no idea where the post came from. I was going with a whole other topic and my fingers lead to something else?! Sorry if it does not make sense to most of my readers but I am pretty sure that it may hit home to one person in general.
Loves.