I've been having a horrible time this weekend from feeling overwhelmed with silly things in life. Charli has got to the point where she is getting up around 3 in the morning (mostly only if I am home) and staying awake until 5:30 or just until the sun comes up and wants to sleep late. This isn't working for my crazy work schedule and I'm not sure how to solve the problem. I get aggravated very easily at night whenever I know nothing is wrong with her, and she just wanting to be silly or watch t.v. Whenever we moved her into her own room we stopped playing baby Einstein (which I loved) for her through the night and she was able to watch her own t.v. I think this is the worst thing that could of ever been started for her now. Sometimes she can't even stand to see me at night due to the fact that a lot of nights I work third and she's used to her Nana taking care of her. This truly makes me feel horrible, not that it makes me mad or anything at either of them. I just want to be there for her more, every day and night. I'm stressing about my work situation because if you haven't ever noticed I'm not at all happy with it. But I'm very blessed and lucky to have one during these horrible economic times. I get very sad especially on the weekends whenever I can't spend time with my family. I do have plenty of days through the week to enjoy with them sometimes but my parents work through the days and are very tired whenever they get home also. I'm not a fan of growing up I guess. I've been looking to the Lord and praying my heart out over this the past few weeks, and right now I'm still getting a lot of unanswered prayers. This may be a blessing in itself, but I have a feeling that it isn't.
Charli and I on a Sunday afternoon spending the day together. I'm sure that you can tell that this was couple of years ago. But how I long for those days with the family again!