Monday, May 2, 2011

Strange Text Msg

On Saturday, after CB's softball practice I came home with a horrible headache and not to mention a sunburn from being at the town festival all morning. I took a nap on the couch and woke up to a text from a cousin that lives in the Chattanooga, TN area saying that a family member had said that my (real) so called "father" was killed in the April 27, 2011 tornado.

Let me first say that this is a man that I have not seen since I was very young age, nor have I talked to. It is a man that I do not respect in any certain way. But I have always wondered how I would feel when this day came, and how it would happen.

I am not an emotional person, but I wanted to find out the truth. For not only me, but my family members in that area as well. So I got online and researched his name, in which I did find that there was a person the exact name that was a victim of the tornado.

To be honest, I still had no emotions at all about this. But I looked up the number for the Sheriffs department in that town and called. I spoke with the lady and told his full name, but I was not sure of his date of birth because I didn't exactly now him. I'm sure it was hard for her to understand, but the lady remembered taking the call of the man's death, and was able to make contact with the family. After calling me back, she was able to confirm that this was indeed not my so called Father. I'm still not sure how I will feel when that day comes, I just know that it was a very strange feeling for me. The dispatcher was a very sweet woman and done her job very well, but I can also tell that she could hear in my voice that either way I was okay. Calls like this are always hard, and I am sure that my phone call to her, took her back to the devastation of last week.

If you are in this situation and have had someone to walk out of your life, to do such awful things to your family that I will never talk about on my blog (for respect to my actual family) then you will understand where I am coming from.

Although, while I was waiting on hold for the dispatcher, I scrolled through the list of victims, which included a 3 month old baby in that town, my eyes filled with tears.

The point of the matter is there are so many victims that are still unable to be found, and so many family members still trying to get a hold of loved ones. I can not even imagine how they feel during this tragedy. This disaster is far worse than I could of ever imagined, while watching the twister live on the weather channel. Bless their hearts. I just ask everyone to remember all of the victims and ones that have been effected by the tornado - including emergency responders. My heart aches for these people and all that they have lost.

This is a video that I seen posted on a blog:

10 comments:

Jessica said...

That is so hard to watch. I can't imagine what these people are going through. As devastating as it is, it's a big reminder how powerful God really is. Tragedies tend to bring out the best in people as well. It's refreshing to see everyone pull together to help one another.

Mandy said...

I know exactly how you are feeling. I have no idea how I will react when I find out some day that my "so called Father" has passed...

Thankfully my mom re-married a wonderful man when I was 4 who stepped in and became the dad I never had. I will forever be grateful for him.

Rosie said...

I can't watch these videos without crying.
What a weird feeling that must have bene for you to get. My hubby has the same relationship w/his "real" dad, so I can imagine how difficult it was to hear.
My heart still goes out to everyone affected from the tornadoes though. Our company is heading that way this week to start cleanup and I know we'll get first hand views of just how bad it was.

Kristin said...

O MY!! We are more alike than I thought!!! I don't talk to my "real" dad either. Havent for about 6 years, or the rest of that side of my family. He has never met my kids. & probly never will.
He never has been there for me in my whole life. O well.

The Storm situations are horrible! My stepdad is a contractor for entergy and he is on his 4th week of working 7days a week 17hours a day!

Be Safe Love!!

Perfectly Imperfect said...

Wow. I'm sure that was a very odd phone call to take. We lost my granddad a while back and I felt nothing. He decided years ago to not have anything to do with us.. His loss.

The damage is heartbreaking.. Praying for all the families affected by the tornadoes.

Annie said...

Wow Paige...what a strange call that must have been for you. I cannot even begin to understand!

That video is devistating....how terrible. It is crazy how much damage there is. I am prayig for thise that have been affected!

Lexie Loo & Dylan Too said...

I think I would want to know the truth, too.
My thoughts and prayers are with all the people dealing with the tornado aftermath and losses.

Gina said...

Wow, what a crazy story. I think the way you felt is totally normal.

The Arrow Raisers said...

Hi!!! I am such a dork and just saw your comment on J's bday party. The Vet Horse is a Breyer...not sure at all where my dad picked it up, but I'm sure you could easily find in online. :) So glad to hear from you also!! We've been S.O. busy and I am such a B.A.D. blogger. :) Baby time is soon for us!! Wish us luck.

JLN said...

Wow. We are in the same situation. My "father" hasn't been in my life since I was 2 or 3 and I have wondered the same thing. Will I be sad when he dies? Will I regret anything? And I think that the answer to both of those questions is "no" but I will never know for sure until it happens...thanks for writing this! It's always good to know that other people are going through the same thing as you :)

And CONGRATS on winning Lindsey's giveaway! That's how I found you :)

xoxo
Jess

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