I've been having a horrible time this weekend from feeling overwhelmed with silly things in life. Charli has got to the point where she is getting up around 3 in the morning (mostly only if I am home) and staying awake until 5:30 or just until the sun comes up and wants to sleep late. This isn't working for my crazy work schedule and I'm not sure how to solve the problem. I get aggravated very easily at night whenever I know nothing is wrong with her, and she just wanting to be silly or watch t.v. Whenever we moved her into her own room we stopped playing baby Einstein (which I loved) for her through the night and she was able to watch her own t.v. I think this is the worst thing that could of ever been started for her now. Sometimes she can't even stand to see me at night due to the fact that a lot of nights I work third and she's used to her Nana taking care of her. This truly makes me feel horrible, not that it makes me mad or anything at either of them. I just want to be there for her more, every day and night. I'm stressing about my work situation because if you haven't ever noticed I'm not at all happy with it. But I'm very blessed and lucky to have one during these horrible economic times. I get very sad especially on the weekends whenever I can't spend time with my family. I do have plenty of days through the week to enjoy with them sometimes but my parents work through the days and are very tired whenever they get home also. I'm not a fan of growing up I guess. I've been looking to the Lord and praying my heart out over this the past few weeks, and right now I'm still getting a lot of unanswered prayers. This may be a blessing in itself, but I have a feeling that it isn't.

Charli and I on a Sunday afternoon spending the day together. I'm sure that you can tell that this was couple of years ago. But how I long for those days with the family again!

Giveaway!! [foster family]

The Foster Family; I came across this adorable blog from Lea Liz's wishful wedneday list the other night (I also did a my own list). She is the blessed Mommy of beautiful twin girls and is also a single Mommy! (yay for Single Mommy's and esp. of twins **big props on that!!) She is having a give away hosted by:

The item that she is giving away are adorable little boy or girl gummie dolls w/ the fabric of your choice. I must add that they are adorable, and perfect if you have an infant. I did enter this contest because charli girl would l-o-v-e a doll with the little tags. She loves anything that can give her a new adventure or anything that is just simply a doll. They would be perfect for infant tummy time or car rides! You can click on the graphic to go to Southern Sews Etsy store to look at her dolls and burp cloths or click the Foster Family to go to her blog to enter into her contest! Good luck ladies =)

Thankful Thursday: I have ten minutes to get this posted before it turns into Fabulous Friday! (lol) I've been running around like a chicken with it's head cut off all day looking for the perfect present for Pa's birthday...let's just say I am a horrible gift giver!

* Charli Beth's health/my entire families health

* The love that surrounds my family and how close we are

* That even if it's not exactly what I am looking for some days, I have a job that pays well, and will lead my life to wonderful places (I prayyyy)

* That there is finally an amazing man in our lives. (Three to be exact counting the Lord and Pa)

* That my life is exactly where it needs to be. I'm so content and happy with everything.

Wish List Wednesday!!

I found this on The Roland's blog and immediately new that I had to participate on this blog! I have enough on my "wish list" to play a long every week.
(Because dispatchers just aren't paid enough; or at least this one isn't!)

A house. An old white farm house to be exact, for my first home that is..I'll think of what I want forever later. (It doesn't have to be this big either..I just love the house, and yes it is from The Notebook)



I'm a huge animal lover, and always wanting to take on a new adventure of owning an animal. Growing up my family and I always had dalmatians as our family pets. I know what people say about them, but I just love them. Hopefully here soon...Charli and I will find a beautiful dog to finally call ours!

Just about every list I have looked at, has had a pool. I do not mind the shape size, in ground, above ground, color what, as long as it's big enough for my hind end I'll take it =)


So I've been waiting very patiently (yea right?) for NREMT to send my EMT number so that I could start applying for other part time positions in the surrounding counties. Come to find out, after calling them, and our state office, then NREMT back, I've found that there is a paper that my instructor and I were both to sign and fax to them. I wonder why I wasn't aware of this? I just wish he would get on the ball and sign it. I'm to impatient!!!


So last night and tonight after dinner I've been craving oreos and milk. Sadly, my dear Mom used them all for dirt cake on Saturday for the cookout. I suppose that is a good thing, because there is some much un-needed weight around here that is soon to go before vacation time but this is why it's a wish list, right?

I loved this & plan to do it every week I do believe!!

I've been an awful blogger this week due to the fact that Charli girl has had strep throat. She is thankfully getting better and her temps are staying down. What a blessing that is! Her temps were getting so high at night that it felt like the bed was on fire. I've always thought it is strange how childrens temps get so much higher at night than during the day. Charli has febrile seizures so it's always a scare for us whenever she has a temperature. She's only had one seizure, which was last March and that was scary enough for me. Her airway actually closed off long enough for her to turn blue, thankfully I was able to clear it and we were at my work so it didn't take EMS long to get here.

• I promise to get those Evan pictures posted very soon, please contiue to remember this family in your prayers.
• Also remember the Mac's that are the parents of Cora Paige that passed away at only 10 short months of spending with her family. These wonderful parents are expecting again, and I'm sure they would love your prayers too.

Happy "Pa" Day!

This day around our house is probably different than most, but we celebrate Pa with Charli. Pa is my Step Father, that is more of a Father than I could have ever asked for or Grandpa for Charli Beth. We never give him the amount of credit that is due for all the hard work and love that he gives to us, but I hope that he knows in the long run how much love that I do have for him. This is something that I promise to change in our relationship in a family. I want everyone of them to know how much Char and I love them each time we leave their presence ( just like Juliana has talked before in her blog). Charli is by far is favorite girl, and she knows that she is "Pa's girl." Her face lights up whenever he comes into a room, and she loves most of all seeing that big green semi pull into the driveway!

We had a cookout last night to celebrate the day with friends and family. Can you believe I didn't take any pictures? Yea, I know that is not like me at all. I figured that I better chill for just a few mins and take in the moments of happiness with my family instead of standing behind my little Kodak. We had a great night spending time together until my little one started getting sick. Here in Kentucky it gets horribly humid (yes, I know it could be so much worse too), so I wasn't able to tell that she had a temperature until we went inside. I figured the humidity and food mixture was what got her stomach upset, but I was sadly wrong. She ran a temp through the night and slept until almost ten this morning (which is strange for her sleeping habits now). She wasn't warm or any other until after we left church, then she started getting sick again. I hope that this clears up and she doesn't have a virus that will set in for to long. I'll probably be taking her to the doctor in the morning, because I can't imagine how she feels with how hot it has been and not feeling well a the same time. Better to be safe than sorry later huh?

Thank you for the comments on your favorite books and where I can go to get the amazing reviews. I haven't had the time to start looking for one just yet, but I will let you all in on whatever I decide on!

Nashville Zoo

These are a few of my favorite pictures from our day at the Nashville Zoo on Thursday where we spent most of the day and then headed to the Rainforest cafe at Opry mills. Even though it was the hottest day we have had this year, it was probably one of the best for the three of us (well at least I know it was for Charli and I). Whenever we got home to Kentucky, we quickly changed clothes and headed to church for the night. The last picture is of Charli girl knocked out after coming home from such a long day!

Thank you for all of the sweet comments and congrats on passing my test! I really feel lost at life now that I'm not having to study or bring my books to work with me. What will I do now while trying to waste my night away? I've thought about starting to read, which is sooo not me. The only books that I can ever get into are journal type books like the Last Lecture, in which I do think is an amazing book. Do any of you ladies read on a daily basis and if so can you let me know what some of your favs are? (BTW, please no Twilight or any of it's series. Not into that. lol) Or any ideas of what I can do to waste nights, cheap ideas?!

Hope that you all have a great Saturday!

FINALLY!!!

I have passed my last EMT test =)

and it feels so very...

haha, and yes I did actually scream and cry whenever I seen my results!

Charli Loves Evan!

Please take a look at Evan's Blog! His Mommy is wanting everyone to take crayons, shapes, or whatever you may feel like using to spell out Evan's name and take a picture! Also you can write his name on a paper and hold it in front of your favorite place and take the picture this way! This family is in need of many prayers as Evan has been fighting a long battle. I can only imagine how worn down at time's Evan's Parents may get, but they are always there and making sure that we have updates on Evan's progress! So lets show this family how much we care, love, support and are praying for them =)

Thank you!

You can send the pictures to her email which is located in her blog!
Keep checking back for our pictures to be posted, for ideas (even though I'm not creative maybe it will inspire someone?!?)
Have a great weekend!

So is she going to be a tom-boy or a girlie girl?
...time will only tell!

Another Milestone

Here are pictures of Miss Charli Beth before heading to church and her new Sunday School class. I can't believe how much she has grown up on us here lately. She let us know whenever she came up from her class that her new teachers name is Mary Ellen and they talked about "Ham" (Abraham)! Isn't that exciting that she is learning so much about Jesus and the books of the bible?!

take 1 (Idk why she is holding her chin?)

take 2 (best picture lol she is just so darlin')

take 3 (little sassy pants)

Charli and her Nana before church, which is the one that I am so very thankful for. If it wasn't for Nana, Charli Beth would not know the Lord like she does already. She never fails to take her every Sunday morning, night and on Thursday nights if she is able to. We had a huge falling out with Charli last night before church because we woke her up from her precious nap time. She has never been a child to nap everyday or wake up early in the mornings so if you wake her up, your practically in deep trouble.

Just remember Nana...

--This phase is gonna fly by, If you can just hold on, It won’t be like this for long--- Darius Rucker

maybe =) haha! BTW, I know I've said it before, but I just l-o-v-e that song it so amazing! Also, last night was the last time that I'll be able to attend church with Mom and Charli on Sundays. There is probably nothing that I hate more than that. I loved sharing my days with my family as much as I have here lately with working 3rd shift. Now it's a new week and I'm back to my crazy regular schedule. No, I'm not lazy (well maybe a bit) but working these hours gets really tough for me and makes me pretty fed up with this career on a lot of days. I know everyone says it takes time to get where you want to be, but most days I feel like giving in and giving up. I pray things get less hectic with work soon.

More Pageant days...

This weekend has been beautiful, busy and the best ever! I managed to ask off for Saturday because I knew it was going to be a little to busy and tiresome to handle. So I got two hours of sleep and headed out w/ Mom and Charli Beth to a nearby town for the Little Miss & Mister Barren River. Charli was in the 3-4 year old age group this time. (I know she is growing up way to fast! Where does time go?) The little girls before her walked up on stage all by their selves like "big girls" so Charli just had to do this also.

I kinda knew deep down that whenever she went up there she was going to be very shy and I was right! (who would of thought that?) She did manage to make it infront of the judges and wave a little bit. Charli did great for her first time on stage by herself! The girls then went back on stage all together, and did turns and the announcer asked the ladies "what their favorite foods were." They all gave the cutest little answers, besides...Charli!!! She wouldn't speak to them! If you know Charli girl in person, I'm sure you know this is not like her what-so-ever! The girl will talk your head off! haha! I guess she got a bit of stage fright but she did perfect either way! We managed to get 3rd place and she was so excited about her trophy!

All of the girls on stage together

*Stage fright* poor baby!

Picture for the paper; Little miss, 2nd place, 3rd, and I'm not exactly sure what the other two received. I'm sure it's photogenic and eyes!


After the pageant, Mom, Charli Beth and I had plenty of time to waste before the baby shower we were to attend. So we headed to a bakery, shopping, and to Buckhead for snacks! Charli had to carry her trophy into every store we went into! I'm sure people didn't think it was as cute and sweet as her Nana and I did! We had a great day spending time together besides my "zoning out" from no sleep =) haha!

The baby shower was amazing also. We were able to see great friends that we haven't seen in years, and that always makes for a good day! The shower was for one of my sister's and I best friends while growing up, Wendy. We spent practically everyday together through my pre-teen and teen years. We all drifted apart as I changed schools and they got older. She (sadly) now lives in GA with her Husband that is in the Army. They are due August 10th I believe, but she is measuring 4 weeks early. Please keep them in your prayers that the baby will be fine and ready whenever it's time to welcome him into the world! Also Wendy's husband Randy will be out of town with the Army the entire month of July, and will not be there for the birth of his baby! I can't imagine how either of them feel. Her Mother will be staying from the first of July until Andrew Preston arrives. Which is great! There is nothing better than having your Momma by your side =)

Having this Saturday night off has really spoiled me, I absolutely loved it and would give anything to have a few off every now and then! Beggers can't be choosers though! Right Momma? I have more pictures to share with your of Charli from the weekend but I'll wait until I come back into work today at three! I just wish that 6 would hurry up.. I'm oh so sleepy for some reason & it's a full moon if that tells you anything about my night! Hope you guys have a great week!

A few things that annoy me.

...first of lets face it, I've said it before & I'll say it again. I'm not your average blogger. I post about life, my life, & my law enforcement aspects. I'm sometimes happy, sometimes sad, sometimes angry. But this is life..my life to be exact. Love me, like me or hate me...I'll still love you =) Here goes!

We seem to always post about a things we love, like and adore. Well, not that I'm one to complain a lot (yeaaaa.. RIGHT!) but I ran across something earlier today that I would really like to put my two cents worth into. Most of you will probably not agree, because I am not your typical girl. I'm complicated all of the time (ask my new "prospect" as we've been calling him) selfish at times, and confused majority of the time. But one thing I do know all of the time, is I do not need a man to make my life complete, and no I'm not saying that you "do" or think you do by any means.

I see women all of the time, inside blog world and outside, that seem dependent on the livelihood and love of a male. Do you understand that you are strong if not stronger without a man? I never knew how strong and how much of a woman that I am until I became "along." The greatest moments and years of my life has been while single. Yes, I am even thankful that he left me, so that I could grow on my own. I would of never realized money situations, caring for my child, how hardworking and determined that I will have to be to make my dreams come true. Sometimes I'm just not sure that some women realize that the times that they are single they shouldn't be praying for someone, they should be praying for their own personal growing in life, health and spirits so that whenever "your person" does come along they will be ready. This I also know, I am ready. I understand the determination in life that it takes to love an be loved. I've been through a lot within relationships, but I will never sit here and say it is more than you have been through. But I do know one thing for sure, we are all very strong in our own ways and you are just fine without having a man to provide and love you right now. This is your time to get ready!

So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Isaiah 41:10

Dear Prospect, please do not think that was about you...because I promise it was not.

I heard on the news the other morning while I was driving little miss to the sitters that a toddler had passed away after drinking the chemicals (drain cleaner) that are used to manufacture methamphetamine! Yes, how very sad. This did happen in Kentucky, how it hasn't made more headlines than it has, I have no idea. The parents are in jail, but guess what there ages are 19 (Dad) and 14 (Mom). No joke! Some of you are probably laughing it up and saying "only in Kentucky" but this is ridiculous and sad. Why was this young family not checked out before. We have these problems in our own county, not exactly with the ages but drugs and families not being checked out (I'm not downing systems either). I have tears in my eyes thinking of the toddlers and infants that are being destroyed because of Meth. I'm so very tired of it. I pray for these children, because this something they will never be able to overcome unless they are helped at this age. Someone asked me the other day "Why the Lord put these precious babies through this" and then a response came "So we'll have jobs later on." That is not a joke by saying that, these kids will not go anywhere in life, and they will be our future drug dealers and crooks if they do not receive help soon. My brain is turning and trying to come up with a foundation or organization to help children that are effected by drugs in our community. This will be a stepping process though...and any ideas will be fabulous!

Now, it's time to be thankful which I have realized lately that these are the only things that get me through life at times.

*The way you care.
* For being able to grow with my child and provide for her as well as I have.
* The job that I have, oh yes, I complain on this everyday but in the long run it has brought me through the past year and half and paid the bills (major smiles).
*Family; ahh how much I love them. Yes, I complain on how they will not empty the trash whenever it's full, but I've caught myself doing this also so I'm sorry for being hypocritical.
* Church days that I rarely get to experience but they bless my soul.
*Friends (blog friends and real friends), I probably have more blogger friends than I do any others, but I'm still thankful for every one of you. They are all few and far to come by. It such a blessing to have you all.
*I am thankful for the White Family that started"Thankful Thursday," these are the wonderful families that give us hope, strength and smiles. We are praying for you White family! (click on the graphic to get read Johnathan's story & blog)
*I am thankful that you made the most memorable way ever of getting my phone number. It makes me laugh every time I think of it, and it is for sure a "story for the books." I can't tell you enough how thankful I am for you in my life (even if it halfway contradicts my above paragraph!)
*For not having my car stolen like I very much so thought it was when coming out of Opry Mills last night..I'm just a dumb blond some days I believe.
* and last but not least silly faces that make my life so beautiful & fun!

breathless. . .

By far my favorite picture, ever.
I smile every time I look at this w/ huge crocodile tears.
& yes, I am a big baby for it.