Last Saturday I started back to work, and if you cannot tell by looking at the pictures I was a complete hot mess going back. You may not know or remember but I have been off from work since the end of August and have really gotten spoiled to my nights at home with my family. Being able to have dinner, give Charli a bath, brush her hair/teeth, read bed time books and pray has been something that I have always cherished. I think that over all I just really never knew how wonderful it was to be able to do these things since I have been working second shift for so long. But being grown up is hard sometimes, and sometimes we have to do things that we do not want to do in the least little bit. So off I went....
I held in the tears as I was handing Bryar off to his MiMi and packed Charli up to go stay with her Nana. Just knowing that I was not going to be there for the children during the times of the day that they really need me just broke my heart. I am sure that all of you can relate.
It may sound funny but just being able to pump for him help my day not only go by quicker but it made it a lot easier for me because I knew I was still helping my boy out. As for Charli, she was with our family going to the town Christmas parade and having a get together afterward so I knew that she was totally fine with her Dear ol' Momma around!
I am now on my two days off and thanking the Heavens for it too! I cuddled Bryar in bed until almost one today just because I missed him. Charli Beth and I have belly laughed so very much today. Ah, I have missed my family and will continue to.
Please do not pay attention to my dirty house, like I said I was a mess and throwing things everywhere just to get out of the door!
Please do not pay attention to my dirty house, like I said I was a mess and throwing things everywhere just to get out of the door!
9 comments:
Sorry you have to go back! It will be ok! Love you!
never doubt that you aren't a good mama :) You're a GREAT mama!
Hope the new schedule gets easier for you, enjoy your weekend!
Ugh, I hated going back to work - and I was only gone for 5 hours a day! My mom was a dispatcher for 29 years (she just retired in the spring), but she rotated shifts every month - days, evenings, nights - I think she hated evenings the most because she called us 8 million times a night just to see what we were doing!
Awww I know what its like to go back to work. It does get better and its great that you are pumping! I did the same thing and am so glad I did :)
That must be so hard:( Is there any way yo can switch shifts to the earlier one?
I have no babies so I don't know how you feel, but I understand that it must be hard! Just think about the wonderful life that you and your hubby can provide for your babies.
I hope you have a wonderful weekend!
AS much as I LOVE my job, there are still days my heart breaks leaving my sweet boy. Praying for an easy transition.
I totally cried my first night back to work!! It sux but it gets easier....kind of.
Being working mommy is the hardest thing I ever did. Broke my heart to get home at night just in time to have the tantrums and then bed. I questioned me working my long hours all the time but it's what I had to do. I love staying home this time but it's a hard job too. At least working you'd get a break here and there and could have a grown up conversation. They each have good and bad and I'm blessed to have experienced each. You look great so don't even say otherwise ha! I hope it's getting easier working now. Like you said, being grown is hard!
Laura
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