It's 4:29am and I'm at work for now well my 8th day in a row and coming back in 3-11 this afternoon. Woohoo for that money =) haha! Anyways, just thought I would give you all something to laugh about for the day. Charli brought Mom and I a bottle of bubbles yesterday afternoon while we were in the living room talking. Of course I didnt want "bubbly juice" all over the couch so I acted like I couldnt get the bottle open! So she went back and forth to Mom and I trying to show us how to open the bottle up. Saying "do it like this.....*ahhh*" trying her little heart out, and turning blood red in the face. Well, mom eventually told her that we just couldnt do it for her. She told us "hang on a minute"..got on her knees, put her hands together, knelt her head to floor and started talking. Then said amen. We asked what she was doing and she said "i pray. Now open bottle" hahaha! Love that little girls heart. You never know the next thing that is going to come out of her mouth of what she is going to do next. I believe this one of the moments where I thank God that I have her in my life and how beautiful, smart and talatened she already is! I can already see that going on vacation next month is going to be blast with her. This week Charli Beth and I are going back to Richmond for a night to go to a Police Academy Graduation. She loves being "Charli deputy" so I'm sure I will have plenty of pictures to show for her time we spend up there.

blowing out candles on cake #1

(and still with blonde hair)

cheezin' BIG time.

My sister & I before heading out for the night

Okay, so the birthday weekend went great! I loved spending time with my sister and my old roomie from college Stephanie. I can always count on Stephanie to be a great friend. She also tagged along 5 friends with her from Owensboro, and they were all hilarous and made my night totally worth it! Esp. Joel which was one of three guys to give me a lap dance at Graham Central Station infront of everyone for my bday. I will not post pictures of this event on here though! Sorry guys! =) My first drink of the night, or first couple was from McFadden's ?? Never heard of it, but the bartender was awesome and they were all screaming happy birthday to me before i even got in! So more power to that place. We had dinner at Deemo's restraunt before heading out that night, and sweetheart Johnathan had them to bring me a brownie with candles in it. Totally sweet. I didnt get to drunk, and yes I probably shouldn't have drank at all. But I do only have one 21st birthday! Atleast thats what I keep getting reminded of! Well back to reality we had to get up extra early since I had to work Sunday at 2 pm and dang Ike was blowing the crap outta Kentucky. Thank God, scottsville was not hit hard because I'm not very sure I could of handled it that day. Charli Beth had a horrible time with me being gone that night which made me feel like complete crap. Mom said that she has never acted so clingy with me being gone. Which is very weird since i was gone for weeks at a time to the police academy? Maybe she wasnt feeling the best. She is such a mess this week though. I guess I'm paying for my mommy night out!! Anyways, I make my first car payment tomorrow and I'm very nervous about it. LOL! Money stresses me out so bad. I'm not sure why? I'm not a material person by any means but I do believe that money can make you happy because it can sure enough make ya sad!

Mom was put in the hospital Monday morning for her heart. She had been having chest pains through the weekend. When they did an EKG at the doctor it was abnormal, so they sent her on to be direct admitted. I dont think I have ever been so scared or cried so hard. I was so confused and really thought that she was playing a joke on me? I know, im crazy. But my mom is my best friend, and she has been through a lot lately..I just lost it. Thankfully God stood my family, listened to all of the prayers and all of the test came back fine. I've never been so happy to hear that. She got to come home yesterday afternoon. So thank you to everyone that has been praying for her over the past few days! I suppose I better get to doing somethings before I head to bed. loves & hugs*

So the big 2-1 has came and went, and i feel only a day older and still no fun. LoL! I'm only kidding. Yesterday for my birthday mom, Charli Beth and I went to the Lighthouse restraunt in Sulphur Wells, KY which I may add has the best food EVER. It is most deff. my favorite place in the world to eat. We then shopped for a while and picked up my birthday cake.(which i may add was adorable) I had cake with family and kiki, and charli's bestie Kaylen. I have decided to go out with friends and some friends of friends tomorrow night. I'm heading to Nashville tomorrow with my sister, my old roomie Stephanie from college and several of her friends from Owensboro, KY. I haven't ever taken a little trip like this but I am very excited to see how it will turn out. I also cant wait to spend time with my sister, I seriously dont think her and I have ever thought about going anywhere like this together before but I can already tell her and I will make it fun one way or another.I am sure I will be posting pictures on here or on myspace. I am very blessed to have some of the friends and family members that I do have.

My mom took this picture before we left for church sunday morning. Every since Charli and I have started attending church services with my mother at East Willow Church of God. I look forward to Sundays more. Not only to share the time with my two favs; mom and charli beth. But to be at the most wonderful feeling place in the world. When you step into the doors of this church if you dont feel the spirit there is something sure wrong with you. If you dont get the Lord's word out of Bro. Danny's preaching somethings wrong. I have never attended a Church of God regulary. My family has always went to Baptist church. A church that I will not name. I do not want to slander anyone or to even make someone feel that I am judging them in a way that I shouldnt. I'm just going to take a few moments to "make Bro. danny's head a bit bigger" lol. I have always felt that when becoming a preacher you do not take on just the responsibilties of sharing the word with your church members, but also helping them in times of need. Preachers are suppose to care about their members, the way they are living their lives, if their family is on the rocks, and so forth. Not just care about the family that they have of their own.

The church that I have just left from has never worried about the finding the good things in my life. Just being honest here. Everytime something goes wrong or they think that I may have started a new relationship up. Someone was to always put there nose, exactly where it does not belong. That is not what church is for. Church is for praising the big man above that has given us the ability and gifts that we have and recieve each and every day. I have honestly had a woman come to me and ask if I was messing with any of the officers that I work with since I hadnt been coming to church. (Are you kidding me?) When my daughter has been sick, in and out of the hospital. That preacher was never there. I believe out of all the times she was there, he called once. I could never describve how empty that has made me feel. Yes, there is plenty of thing that I could have been doing for this church. But exactly why would I want to be somewhere that I dont feel wanted? My mom started going to East Willow right before the last time Charli Beth was in the hospital for seizures. Guess who came to visit. Good ole' Bro. Danny Patrick. At the time I really didnt know anything about him besides my mom and some other family members telling me that he was such a great man of the Lord. And goodness, wasnt they right. There isnt a time that I go into the doors of East Willow without coming out around 2 o'clock with a heart of gold and huge smile on my face. We always play with Charli Beth saying that she has already had to much Church of God and we better get back to Baptist to get some of that spirit out of her. Are you kidding me? That spirit has just begun and I cant wait to see what else this church does with my life. =)

Charli and I took a trip to Glasgow today. I love our small little roadtrips where we can sing and dance with people driving by looking at us like we are crazy. She makes me the happiest person in the world. I get so tickled at her and start to cry thinking that times have flown by since she was just a little 4 lb 2 oz baby. Its amazing how fast they grow. I have a couple of friends that are starting to not come around and not speak as much anymore because Im a mother and I work all the time. But I am a point in my career that this is what it takes. Its not games anymore, this is my life. There are a couple of things that I want to acheive in the next couple of months that is going to take up even more of my time that I have already lost but I'm okay with that. I wont get to spend as much time with Charli but like I stated above, it's what it is going to take. I'm so excited about the future of everything that is going on in my life.

a good mommy and a young adult, is it possible?

So, I am starting or trying to plan for my 21st b-day weekend (which is FINALLY next weekend). And I have all the sudden started to have second thoughts on going. I'm not sure why but I always seem to start feeling guilty for going out. Most people wouldnt, or maybe they would? I have no idea. I'm not a mother that can leave my child all the time to run around. Heck I never do. The only times I have left her lately is WORK, WORK, and a bit of extra sleep today because I feel almost overwhelmed from WORK. lol. And i even felt guilt for this. Just like the title says can you honestly be young and be a good mom? I would hope so. Although in others eyes when they see you out and actually trying to have "you" time they think that your ditching your child. I'm not saying this all the time running around thing, like so many young parents do. Because that isnt right in my eyes what-so-ever. Who am I to judge though? I honestly believe that I am a good parent to Charli Beth. But whenever I decided to grow up over night and become the mommy I am today. I left the being young part far behind. Maybe thats the reason that whenever I do go out with friends for an evening..it's so kind of "blah." Since I have totally forgot how to act? haha. Then again, I hate feeling old. I have even stopped talking to and broke up with guys for acting so "old" but then I cant even act young? I plan to have one of the best nights ever with friends and tuck the guilt away for a little bit to have fun. It was just a question that I have been asking myself all day though.. So if you read this...give me your opionions on it.

p.s.
if you would like to join me in living up my 21st, just let me know ;o) haha*

100 things I'm sure you dont know about me...

When I came across this blog the first person's I seen was a lady from my town. Her blog is exteremly cute and family oriented just as mine will turn out to be as well as about herself. She got the idea to post a 100 things most of you do not know about her from her fav. blogger. So i figured I would also go with the challenge and do the same...

1. I am a Christian. And plan to grow with Christ.
2. I want to have 4 kids someday.
3.My crazy lucky/unlucky ..werid # is 11.
4. The only person I can ever fully trust is my Mother.
5. Math beat my rear end in school.
6.I hate to run, but I plan on being in the best shape of my life soon.
7. My papaw is my inspiration, and I thank him for looking down on me every night.
8. My daughter is named after him as well.
9. There is only very FEW foods that I do NOT like.
10. I'm not as hardcore as I seem =)
11. I used to sell cars at Gillie Hyde (whom I do not recommend to anyone)
12. My nickname is Pig
13. I do not know my real Father, and it seriously doesnt bother me.
14. I believe that people that do drugs will be the death of America.
15. I honestly think money actually can make you happy
16. I love to write, but I dont think I am very good at it.
17. I'm not very into Christmas because people dont except the meaning of it, anymore.
18. Although, I spend WAY to much money at christmas & birthdays on my Charli.
19. Charli Beth's name was almost Riley Caroline.
20.My first car was a 94 sundace, teal green..made me want to throw up & die(haha)
21. You cannot fall in love or deeply care about someone in the first few weeks of dating.
22. My heart has been severly broken before, and is still mending
23. I want to marry a COUNTRY boy
24. Montana is where I want to go on a honey moon.
25. I have more respect for Police Officers than I do most people in life.
26. I love veggies.
27. I think small dogs were a waste of the good Lords time.
28. I wish had more Besties.
29. I won miss congeniality in the Miss Allen Co. pageant and I have no idea how.
30. I would love to be a labor & delivery Nurse.
31. But want to be a Po Po even more.
32. Wyatt Earp & Tombstones are my favorite movies.
33. I loved Hanson more than anything when they're were Big timin'
34. I suck at taking care of cats & dogs
33. But I plan to have a horse farm one day
34. I actually miss rasing tobacco when I was younger
35. My next girls name will be Emerson Rae "Emmy Rae"
36. I love the name Briar for a boy
37. I do regret several things in my past, and I'm not afarid to admit it like most people
38. I say whats on my mind before thinking sometimes
39. The fall is my favorite season
40. After a day at the beach, I'm ready to come back home to the country
41. My dream house is a white 2 story old farm house
42. I sell primitives along with my mom
43. We love going to auctions an buying quilts.
44. I get very sick of boyfriends if they are to clingy
45. I think God kept me alive through my wreck to be a mother to my daughter.
46. I'll never understand the death of my bestie Jamie, and it will hurt my heart that she is gone until the day I am in Heaven with her.
47. My name sounds like I am a African American / Mexican female.
48. I kinda like it though.
49. I can be kinda cocky
50. I used to fight all the time, but I'm a lover now.
51. No matter how bad he hurt me, he was my frist love and i will always respect him for loving me and Charli.
52. I miss high school
53. My sister and I didnt get a long at all while growing up
54. I love fried pies from the Haebagger's Produe market, I'm sure they'll be the death of me.
55. I pray for knowledge to God every night, even if that is funny?
56. I'd rather hang with guys than girls, any day.
57. Gossip makes me laugh, esp. when it's about me.
58. My mother has always known best. Just like she said.
59. I could never be a dispatcher for the rest of my life
60. I hate doing the dishes...heck, i hate cleaning.
61. I worry about my parents, a lot more than they think I do.
62. When I am quiet, there is a million things running through my head.
63. I cannot wait to get married.
64. But i love being single.
65. Fake accents, KILL ME!
66. I have been betrayed by several friends before.
67. I drive a 2008 dodge avenger.. the small charger.
68. I've never dated outside my race (kinda random)
69. I dont understand the B-I-B-L-E
70. My favorite song is I'll fly away
71. I wish I still had my nose periced.
72. Carl Edwards is the hottest nascar racer in history
73. I love Thanksgiving, just so I can eat a ton of food.
74. I spend way to much money eating out.
75. I'm very nervous when it comes to money and my credit.
76. I think Coffee is gross, but i love the smell.
77. I love shakin what my momma gave me (which isnt much) at the clubs.
78. I am not scared of anything but death, loosing someone I care for and sharks.
79. I can shoot a shotgun better than most people I know.
80. Noting makes me smile more than listening to Charli sing.
81. I wish Charli's hair was kinky curly
82. I wish I would of graduated with the people I grew up with in Barren County
83. I still get amazed at the fact that Charli was completely healthy when she was born 6 weeks early.
84. I wish that people wouldn't STEAL my daughters name
85. My sister and I are totally different, but i love her.
86. Greys Anatomy will always have my heart.
87. I hate wearing makeup but I never go without it.
88. I never by pull ups without coupons.
89. I could not live a day without texting..
90. I hate my fingernails and my mom wishes she had them.
91. I have more junk than treasures.
92. I play my music in the car, way to loud!
93. Obama is not everything he says he is...and I pray our country over looks him while voting
94. All of the idiots in Scottsville are my job security.
95. i beleive everything happens for a reason, but we can also choose the paths in life that we take.
96. I think I have chubby cheeks (on my face that is)
97. When I think I'm ready to find love, I find a reason that I'm not.
98. John Deere is kind of annoying, I'm an international kinda girl.
99. I can eat a whole bag of chips by myself.
100. No matter what people think of me, I'll will always be proud of myself and the accomplishements that I have made in life. I may seem a little down every now and then, but eventually my glitter will shine through =) haha.

the first of many to come.

So, i found this site while at work, being bored as usual on Tuesday afternoon. After having myspace for almost four years and not really that "fond" on facebook, i figured I would try something new for a little while. Plus what a great way to keep people updated on mine and Charli Beth' s lives. Charli has grown up so much in the past few months. She talks more than probably most four year olds. She is such a blessing to my life. We have been going to East Willow Church of God with my mom on Sundays and other days that I can whenever I am not working. Charli has started a new thing of singing infront of everyone (while holding her foot out like Elvis) and then telling us to clap our hands and say praise the Lord. It deff. touches your heart to see her tuck her babies into their beds and bow her head and pray with them. Thats a sure reminder that there is a Lord above, and he works in each and everyone of us. As most of my family and friends know, I finally made it through the dispatch academy in Richmond. Thank gosh! That was the most boring thing I've ever had to put myself through. But it will be worth it, I'm sure. Just a little bit closer to dreams, i'm going to accomplish.