I've been having a horrible time this weekend from feeling overwhelmed with silly things in life. Charli has got to the point where she is getting up around 3 in the morning (mostly only if I am home) and staying awake until 5:30 or just until the sun comes up and wants to sleep late. This isn't working for my crazy work schedule and I'm not sure how to solve the problem. I get aggravated very easily at night whenever I know nothing is wrong with her, and she just wanting to be silly or watch t.v. Whenever we moved her into her own room we stopped playing baby Einstein (which I loved) for her through the night and she was able to watch her own t.v. I think this is the worst thing that could of ever been started for her now. Sometimes she can't even stand to see me at night due to the fact that a lot of nights I work third and she's used to her Nana taking care of her. This truly makes me feel horrible, not that it makes me mad or anything at either of them. I just want to be there for her more, every day and night. I'm stressing about my work situation because if you haven't ever noticed I'm not at all happy with it. But I'm very blessed and lucky to have one during these horrible economic times. I get very sad especially on the weekends whenever I can't spend time with my family. I do have plenty of days through the week to enjoy with them sometimes but my parents work through the days and are very tired whenever they get home also. I'm not a fan of growing up I guess. I've been looking to the Lord and praying my heart out over this the past few weeks, and right now I'm still getting a lot of unanswered prayers. This may be a blessing in itself, but I have a feeling that it isn't.
Charli and I on a Sunday afternoon spending the day together. I'm sure that you can tell that this was couple of years ago. But how I long for those days with the family again!
6 comments:
Aw, Paige. Just keep your head up. I can't even imagine how hard it can be on you sometimes. Keep praying though and remember that everything will make you even stronger and you will make it through. :)
Aw, I'm sure that is very hard on you. I can't say that I know what you are going through, but just keep praying. God will get you through this in His time.
"For I know the plans I have for you', declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Jeremiah 29:11
Well, I think you are doing an AMAZING job. Far better than I ever could! Hang in there!!
I am sorry that you are feeling down! It is easy to criticize yourself for some of the kooky/crazy things our kids do, but don't worry. I always tell myself the old phrase that my grandma always told me from the time I was little "This too shall pass!" I have days when I have to repeat it a million times! Hang in there. I will be saying a prayer for ya! :)
Keep your pretty head up!
Oh yes! I do know what you mean Paige. It's okay and will get better. HUGS!!!!!!!!
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