On Saturday, after CB's softball practice I came home with a horrible headache and not to mention a sunburn from being at the town festival all morning. I took a nap on the couch and woke up to a text from a cousin that lives in the Chattanooga, TN area saying that a family member had said that my (real) so called "father" was killed in the April 27, 2011 tornado.
Let me first say that this is a man that I have not seen since I was very young age, nor have I talked to. It is a man that
I do not respect in any certain way. But I have always wondered how I would feel when this day came, and how it would happen.
I am not an emotional person, but I wanted to find out the truth. For not only me, but my family members in that area as well. So I got online and researched his name, in which I did find that there was a person the exact name that was a victim of the tornado.
To be honest, I still had no emotions at all about this. But I looked up the number for the Sheriffs department in that town and called. I spoke with the lady and told his full name, but I was not sure of his date of birth because I didn't exactly now him. I'm sure it was hard for her to understand, but the lady remembered taking the call of the man's death, and was able to make contact with the family. After calling me back, she was able to confirm that this was indeed
not my so called Father. I'm still not sure how I will feel when that day comes, I just know that it was a very strange feeling for me. The dispatcher was a very sweet woman and done her job very well, but I can also tell that she could hear in my voice that either way I was okay. Calls like this are always hard, and I am sure that my phone call to her, took her back to the devastation of last week.
If you are in this situation and have had someone to walk out of your life, to do such awful things to your family that I will never talk about on my blog (for respect to my actual family) then you will understand where I am coming from.
Although, while I was waiting on hold for the dispatcher, I scrolled through the list of victims, which included a 3 month old baby in that town, my eyes filled with tears.
The point of the matter is there are
so many victims that are still unable to be found, and so many family members still trying to get a hold of loved ones. I can not even imagine how they feel during this tragedy. This disaster is far worse than I could of ever imagined, while watching the twister live on the weather channel. Bless their hearts. I just ask everyone to remember all of the victims and ones that have been effected by the tornado - including emergency responders. My heart aches for these people and all that they have lost.
This is a video that I seen posted on a blog:
