Little House on the Prairie Photos

I have one word for these: Gorgeous.

There will be more photos to come later.
This beautiful idea came from CB's Nana!
Take by: Photography by Heather

Whatcha Wearin' Wednesdays

It's all about the deals.

Romper: Peebles - $3
Earrings: F21 - $3.50

Shirt: Ross - $8
Watch: Boutique - $20 (not a bargain..boo)
Ring: Blog Sale - $3

I will try to post a new "Whatcha Wearin' Wednesday" each week which will always be about the bargains because this Momma has a budget!
Caution: I am not very "stylish"... but hey it cannot hurt to try right?!

I will also be posting a blog sale for girls clothes around the size of 3t! Cute cute cute!

My I love you

You are my I love you

Author: Maryann K Cusimano

I am your parent, you are my child
I am your quiet place, you are my wildI am your calm face, you are my giggle
I am your wait, you are my wiggle
I am your audience, you are my clown
I am your London Bridge, you are my falling down
I am your Carrot Sticks, you are my licorice
I am your dandelion, you are my first wish
I am your water wings, you are my deep
I am your open arms, you are my running leap
I am your way home, you are my new path
I am your dry towel, you are my wet bathI am your dinner, you are my chocolate cake
I am your bedtime, you are my wide awake
I am your finish line, you are my race
I am your praying hands, you are my saving grace
I am your favorite book, you are my new lines
I am your nightlight, you are my sunshine
I am your lullaby, you are my peek-a-boo
I am your kiss goodnight, you are my I love you

PCB 2010

I have yet to share pictures from our vacation to Florida in August! I know, what in the world has gotten into me?! I used to blog, all of the time but now I am such a slacker!

Most of the days while we were on vacation we were beach bums except for the day that we attend Gulf World, fishing and the next day we went on the famous Pirate Cruise. The cruise was one of the best things about our vacation. It was so much fun! I advise anyone that is going to a beach to take your child on one of these cruises, it will make you laugh until your belly aches!

My lovely parents

Charli B is such a dare devil, which we actually never would have guessed! She kept telling me that she was scared of heights but whenever it came to the bungee jump, she was all for it! I was so amazed at how high that she went, and she even turned a flip! It honest to goodness scared me to death, I actually screamed at one time!

My sister and I on the fishing trip.
I was so very sick that day and I am not sure that I will ever go deep sea fishing again.

Is it possible..

to break your own heart?
To love some one so much then things do not work out and you have no idea why?

My heart is broken, although I hide it well or at least I try to do so. I'm not sure where my life is going to take Charli Beth and I from here on out and I hate the feeling of not knowing, once again. I thought that I had it all figured it out, but once again God showed me that I am not in control, and neither is Mark. Whenever you love someone so much, you think that you can over come anything. In my case, this isn't always possible, people walk out of my life with out an explanation or let me know what it is that has actually ruined us for good. The talks that we have had about our future, the love and laughs everything was blown to smoke in one sentence.

I picked up mine and CB's items then had to pick her up from preschool and she just bawled because of the love that she had for him also. It's not my fault, not his either. But seriously should my daughter have to go through this? She knew that once again a person that she loved in her life is gone. She just sat her in car seat without me saying anything to her about why her toys were in my car saying "But I love him" and "he's my favorite" - that is just horrible. My daughter should NOT have to know those words at four years old.

This has been going on for a while and I am just now realizing the fact that Mark is actually going to be out of our lives. There is so much left to say at this time even two weeks after its actually happened but right now, I just cannot find the words.We still talk, we are still friends and I still love him but we are no longer together. But CB and I will make it, we always do.

"Maybe God wanted us to meet the wrong person before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift. Maybe when the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us. Maybe the best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had. Maybe it is true that we do not know what we have until we lose it, but it is also true that we do not know what we have been missing until it arrives. Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they will love you back. Do not expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart; but if it does not, be content it grew in yours . It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. Do not go for looks; they can deceive. Do not go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile. There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real. Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do. May you have enough happiness to make you sweet enough, trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy. Always put yourself in others shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts them too. The happiest of people do not necessarily have the best of everything, they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you cannot go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and the heartaches" ~unknown.

23rd Birthday

The day I blow out my candles is September 11 -- well it is the day that I used to blow out my candles until I had Charli now she does it for me!

Yesterday, I celebrated with a birthday dinner to The Cheesecake Factory at the Mall of Greenhills in Nashville. They had the most delicious Cheesecake, ever! Not to mention their fabulous four cheese pasta that my sister and I had!
My Mom took CB to the store with her "list" to pick out a few decorations for the kitchen table to match my adorable "sassy" cake that they also had made! My Mom said that CB would hold up her list to the workers in the store and tell them that her Momma needed this color of balloons and "this" color of plates. So cute! She is such a wonderful daughter! I received all kinds of lovely money to buy a new digital camera with since mine has went to the technology graveyard! I'm gladly accepting any advice on what type of "smaller" camera that I should buy.

Thank you to my parents and the rest of my family for making my birthday so wonderful!

Tea for two

Fancy Nancy knows how to throw the most fabulous tea parties with her friends. Although, she has several rules whenever you attend.

First, you must be dressed in the most fashionable attire. But if you do not have any, she has plenty of accessories to share with you.

Have proper etiquette:

*If you burp, place your hand of your mouth and say "excuse me"
*Place your napkin in your lap and not on your head!
*Compliment your hostess by telling them their snacks are yummy!

Speak as much French as possible to sound more Fancy (in our case, we only speak "redneck" ha!)

Always remember to thank your guests with lots of hugs & kisses for coming.

Kiss it.

This has been one of the most frustrating weeks or times that I have ever had to experience. I do not want to complain to much because there is a family that is dealing with so much more than I could ever imagine.

If you follow me on twitter you may have noticed or be horribly sick of listening to me whine and cry about my gallbladder issues. But seriously girls, it's awful. I love me some food and every single time I eat I am sick and have horrible abdominal pains. I have had an ultrasound and a hida scan done along with blood work after blood work, I also will be having an upper GI scope ran next Thursday. I assume that this is just going to be a long process of pain.

I also started college this week and that is a entire new experience but so far as good!

Yesterday a four year old child was killed in a motor vehicle accident. I cannot and will not go into details but just pray for this family. It breaks my heart for them. I simply cannot imagine this type of pain. I also ask that you pray for all of us (no matter if we are just taking the phone calls. It's still simply hard.), EMS, and officers that were working yesterday. We never have to deal with death of children in our county so you can only imagine how this went over.

I am in no way worried about this, but I need to vent:

Have you ever heard of the website called Topix? If you have then you know it's filled with a complete bunch of who-ha! Someone is on there bashing about how horrible of a dispatcher I am because of a certain call they heard on their scanner at home. Let me first say that I do not read anything on this website and only have this one time because an officer congratulated me for making it on there? Wow, like that is some kind of an achievement. They say that I talk to much, I would fold like a piece of paper if something major ever happened in our county, I bake cookies, I am a smart @$ and etc.

Well let me just go ahead and get this off my chest.

- I cannot even bake cookies whenever I am at home, because they burn, haha. But we do not have a kitchen in our dispatch center to where I can cook, bake or burn anything.

-Do you remember the floods in May? Yeah, I worked them by myself. I called every single person on that half of my county to see if they needed to be evacuated. I was also here from 10 that night until 2 pm the next afternoon..then came back in at ten to work another shift by myself. So I am pretty sure that I can handle serious calls.

-Remember that tornado back a few years ago that killed 4 people in our county? Yeah I was here for that too.

-I like how some of you are saying that I am a smart @$$ because thanks to people like you (trash) I am. Don't like that about me? Then don't speak to me. Please, I beg you not too. But then again, idiots are my job security.

-Do I talk about what happens at my job? Maybe so. Do I speak of names, times, places or any other. Negative. So there for I am not breaking confidentiality by any means. My supervisor sees everything that I talk about on the internet because he also stays on Facebook and supports me 100% as well as the Mayor. (Usually I have a comment like "Dear Full Moon, I hate you because you make my county crazy" Or something to that sort.)

-An officers wife is saying that I am polite but I cannot do my job. Well sweetie, come on up here and do it for me. I will be glad to take the night off.

-Do you all have to work every single weekend and switch from 2nd to 3rd shift every week on very little pay? Yeah maybe but I doubt it because the people that sit on that site do not work. Their job is to sit and talk smack about the good people.

I am not upset but the people on that website can just kiss it for all I care.

Because what really matters is that I keep you, my officers and ems safe.